In life you must chose, will you fight the current to suicide, or embrace it, learn what you can, experience all the shades of anger, intensify it, dare to embrace those intense feelings of anger, and then, then, seriously contemplate suicide.
To learn about racism, of the cruely of the humans, to look back on the past in your life, and understand it, and face the evil of humans head on, accept the contradicting feelings about other people in your school days, and then seriously contemplate to burn the world or cut yourself.